Core Values

I realized something today. Ever since I went in and talked to my church leader, I have felt a burden has been lifted from me. I always thought it was financial stress but it seems to me that perhaps the bulk of it was guilt and worry. I feel so much better now. I had prayed to know if going forward with things in my church would be right at this time and I feel that the way things have gone since I have made that decision have born testimony to the fact that it's the right decision. I've enjoyed a spiritual enlightenment that I have not felt in several years, and a closeness to the spirit I haven't known in awhile.

I feel cleaner. My thoughts are more pure. Am I perfect? Heck no. Is it easier to do good things and is there less of an interest in inappropriate things? Definitely. I'm really quite grateful that things have turned out how they have. I can't undo the past. I can only learn from it and build on it.

Semblance of Continuity

I'm writing this at about the same time I wrote my last post. Since I wrote, I have done some soul searching, scripture study and prayer. I've begun to feel the love that God has for all of his children in my life again, no longer feeling abandoned. This is good, considering I've lost everything and everyone I've ever cared about.

Anyway, I've been feeling much better lately. I've worked with my local church leader to resolve some issues that have stood in the way of me being considered a good member and I'm on track to getting all that resolved very soon. Since my faith is a major part of who I am, it is an extraordinary relief to have things back on track after years of being derailed by my ex. I really wish I had never gotten involved with my ex fiancée.

I thought by doing so I would be able to do something that ultimately failed. On top of that I lost money and I'm still waiting on that selfish person to return my things. I guess I'm grateful she hasn't thrown them away yet. Why does no one keep their word in today's world? Mainly though, when I was involved, I was doing things that I really should not have been and allowed myself to be influenced down a path that brought me nothing but pain.
I'm glad to be free of it and her.

This blog isn't about her though, so moving on. I'm supposed to go to the DMV on Wed. to determine what I need to do to get tags for a car. I have someone willing to try and help me get a car, I just have to be able at the least to get tags for the car. I finally found my W-2's so I'll be able to do something about that soon as well.

I'm quite distracted at the moment and I hope that as I write in this more consistently that my content will improve in length and quality.

Introduction

Ok, I admit it. I've never blogged or written much of anything. I grew up first in Baltimore, MD. I was born on Halloween. Yes, as a matter of fact, I have heard all the jokes. Plenty more to come. Stay tuned :)